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05-28-05 03:20
i'm honestly glad he's happy. i just wish he kept all his promises.
05-25-05 20:23
hello everyone, it's been awhile.
I got in town on friday (well, at midnight) and I went over to Angela's and hung out. That was awesome fun! dance-off! :)
I unpacked on Saturday - then went and hung out with everyone on saturday - we went to the symphony, it was GREAT! :-) and then we went to caffine dreams, which was fun as always.. then saw my steph for the first time in a loong time! :-D i was happy. Then, I spent the night at lizz's. Sunday, I got up and did the last of my unpacking and then had my SoHo party in the evening. It was soo nice seeing everyone again! exciting! Then I just came home to relax.
Monday, I did all my laundry and went down to the dance studio to visit - THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hung out with rory. amazingly awesome time! I am in like. of course. he's the greatest guy, he's so driven and smart and mature. awesome awesome. he has a house now, I hope to be there a ton this summer - because it's a really nice place.! :-D
tuesday I basically slept all day because I didn't leave Rory's until 4:30 am.. oops. hehe :)
I worked out with mom on tuesday night, which was very rewarding.
AND... today...
I started back at SoHo today, it was nice. They're giving me tons of hours. yay!! Then mom and I worked out again tonight. No boy will be able to refuse. haha :) This single thing is kinda nice, no worries.. just crushes. :) never really been in this position before.
Well, I shall go, call me anytime this summer guys! I feel like partying EVERY NIGHT! so, just let me know! :)
<3, Steph

p.s. congrats lauren, he's a pretty good guy.
05-23-05 11:58
check out my myspace to see my new hair!! it's not that great of a picture, but, i'll get some better ones later! :-)

p.s. - just a great song:

I'm gonna be here for you baby
I'll be a man of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

I wanna honor your mother
I wanna learn from your pa
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw
I wanna stand out in a crowd for you
A man among men
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way

I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
And I'm gonna make you a promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us
I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll win your trust making memories of us

^^ Where is he??? I'll find him. yes i will! :-)
i'll post later about the greatness of being back later! promise!
sorry to complain 05-18-05 09:11
ugh. I should have learned my lesson already, but alas, I try again.
For somebody who loved me, the name calling and yelling was very prominent. I just wish it weren't this way. But, I guess maturity levels and levels of moving on are a little different. But, I really do not think I have messed up a little innocent boy. sorry, I wasn't the only person in your life. But, I won't be around to mess it up more, because that's what's wanted by the other party. you hit me, and kissed another girl - and i was the one that fucked everything up? no.
ugh, i'm an idiot for trying.
but work was fun! I worked with joe.. it was awesome. :-) I'm sad it was my last night and one of his first. urg. hopefully he's still there next semester. he gave me a hug when we left. haha, I don't know what to think. and just to dispute thinkings: i am only posting this because it's my day and it helped my day, not to rub it in faces or try to make people jealousy. jeeez, so high school. yep, i'm almost 20 years old. and I'm going to act like it.
I might go get my hurr did tomorra... depending on how much it is.... it shall be fun :-D !!!! hehe!
Girls - can we go clubbin' saturday?????? pleeeeease. or at least next thursday. I need it. haha :-) finals stink and I wanna meet some new people!! :-D Okie dokie! SEE YOU ALL FRIDAY/SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love you all!
gooooood evening! 05-15-05 23:49
i had the greatest (almost) night tonight! It was amazing! I got home safely... that's a plus.. haha... and then got back to the dorm in time to go out with megan and steph to get some brain food (taco bell) to study for finals. Then we went up to butler and sat outside with some AWESOME guys!! brad, scott, rob, gabe, dominic - and i saw dan and justin for the first time in a while! that was nice. we 'studied' and then gabe and rob started throwing food off the fire escape - hilarious. then they went and stole some fruit from the fruit stand that's like 5 minutes away (kinda sad) and cut it all up (watermelon, cantelope and pineapple) so we could have some fresh fruit! they're so thoughtful. But, yea, it was great - and i had my first great convo with a drunk guy. haha, i'm his hero... because I have a 4.0. that was funny. good stuff. meg and i smoked like 4 cigarillos. haha. that was hilarious.. haven't done that in a WHILE, cuz it's lame to do it alone, and ben was the only other person that ever did it with me.. and you know how long that's been. That was fun. good times good times. I'm sad I just met them this week.... but, that just gives me awesomeness to look forward to! woo hoo! Fun kids.. and maybe an awesome fling guy! wooooo! lol
alright, sorry for my boring post.. i gotta catch some zzzz's... it's almost 2 am. oops. haha. i love it. what the hell... i'm almost out! i worked hard ALL semester.. Lord knows I did.

Good day all! Have a pleasant tomorrow!

I shall post about my o town weekend, i promise, i just realized it was pretty late. but, to sum it up - i LOOVE my girls! you are the best. And I had the BEST break-up ever - most civilized and mature and respectful. good stuff.
Alright, nighty night! ttys! :-D

How was Green Day!?? :-(
good day 05-12-05 20:44
Hi there! Just sayin' hello! not toooo much to say... totally slept through my LAST math and history classes today.. but i think it's okay. my history teacher basically told me i could answer one question right on my test and get an 'a'... so, i think it's okay. but yea, so... only one more actual class of my freshman year - best way to end it too, BALLET! :-D yay! it's gonna be so much fun! awww.. i love that class - the guys are the bestest ever! almost done. anyways!
I'M COMIN' TO THE BIG O!!!! WOOOOO! See ya saturday - party hardy. hehe.. i may be partyin' tomorrow night too... that shall be much fun! :-) Hopefully I can get outta here and still be able to get up by 6... haha, or not go to sleep. maybe not.
hmph... not tooo much else. o yea, i'm really mad that I didn't know the killers were coming in town. grrrr.. and green day is in St. Louis tomorrow night.. jeesh. i'm missin' it. o well.
SEE you soon!!! :-)
sooo much to say. 05-09-05 10:20
hello everybody. I felt that I needed to post and at least give a general overview version of what's been going on.
I'm down to my last week of classes and finals next week. I love being here in this beeeeautiful weather, except stupid allergies. grrr. karma. tomorrow I turn in my last paper as a college freshman. if that means anything. ha.
I have decided to change my major. I will become a history major - with an emphasis in secondary (high school) history and social studies. Yep, i'm excited! I'm also planning on getting certified to teach middle school, cuz finding a job in that area will be twn thousand times easier than an elementary job - and I figured out that I don't want to teach the basics like grammar and math- i wanna teach cool stuff like history and current events - and be able to have cool projects. and papers. mwhaha. I'll be like Mrs. Bliss from saved by the bell! :-)
Eric is still greeat. we didn't get to talk alot last week because i was so worn out and kept falling asleep before he even got off work (1 AM my time) - but he wasn't mad. :-) good thing or i woulda hurt him. haha. we talked last night though, it's all good. He is officially flying me to seattle june 15-20. i'm EXCITED. so weird - i'm excited... to see him.. for the second time, ever. haha. weird. But I am. He also wants me to come meet his family before he leaves for Germany in August. I'm sure I will, we'll just see how it goes.
My summer is going to be UBER busy if I get to do everything I wanna! I'm gonna be working 39.9 hours/week, taking a UNO class, taking a dance technique class, helping with recital, visiting Eric twice, spending time with my beloved friends and spending time with my beloved family AND dance camp with my team. holy crap.
I think last night I figured out that I shall become a Mary Kay lady when I am a teacher - make that my summer job. don't ya think? perhaps. We'll see what eric thinks. haha.
ummmm.... Not to much else going on, sent my mommy 2 dozen roses for mommy's day, but i didn't get to see her. :-( i hope she wasn't upset that I didnt come visit her. I guess I could have.. I hope it's okay. I'll see her soon. We'll celebrate soon enough.
Today was my last day of kindergarten... it was fun, everyone gave me a hug, I think I'm going to go to their kindy. graduation on Thursday.. how freakin' cute!
OH YEA. I got a new car. It's AMAZING (i didn't forget.. just forgot I hadn't posted about it). It's a 2005 Hyundai elantra.. it's bright red.. amazing. all the boys stop and stare. haha, jk. (but not really kidding). It's the coolest thing in the world, I feel so grown up. Thank you mom and dad. I will take awesome care and pay everything on time!
Oh, and ladies - I lied to you, I fly in this weekend on Saturday morning, I'll ttyl about it, but yea, it's not friday night. :-(
Okay, enough rambling.. hopefully I will update soon.
04-28-05 15:56
04-27-05 08:08
good morning all! I just wanted to post.. because i'm slightly sad.
Eric found out yesterday, I think, that it's pretty much 99.9% guaranteed that he will be leaving for Germany in August. He has to be there no later than the 27th of Aug. I pray that they will still give him leave that he's suppose to get at the begining of aug. It's sad - he'll be gone for Thanksgiving and most likely for Christmas too! He might be back a little before New Year's - but he's not sure. Does anybody know the time difference between us and Germany? hmph, i don't. Well, I was just posting about that. not too much else new, I posted last night. I have a busy day today, I'm not really looking forward to it.. 2 tests tomorrow.
Well, I'll ttyl!! :-D
Please pray that he Germany IS the place he's going.
::sigh:: 04-26-05 10:10
Life is good.
Mom visited, it was really fun! I went down a couple inches in jeans (figured out when I was shopping). that was pretty cool! woot woot! I didn't like dopping her off, but I'll be home soon! These weeks will go fast, I know.
Eric is buying the plance tickets next week. I'm going to Seattle June 16. I'm nervous. It's going to be awesome, though. I can't wait to hang out with him. :-D It's gonna be fun! :-) yay! ::sigh:: Prince charming exists.
Okay, enough cheesiness... if you wanna hear more, just ask! I could talk forever! haha!
Have a GREAT day!

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